I was speaking to a colleague the other day when they asked, “How many people do you want in The Epic Brand course?”
I paused, numbers initially playing an accordion in my mind, dancing the polka, faces painted, floating through, me pausing, reflecting, thinking.
“The perfect amount. I want the perfect amount.” I said after a minute.
“What does that mean?” they asked.
“I want the right people in this class. I want to have FUN in this class. I want only those who really want to be in this class. I want to have all the necessary time for every. single. one of them. I want the perfect amount. The universe knows what I can handle. It will give me that.”
I’m a firm believer in co-creating our reality. I believe that we have jobs to do on this planet; each their own, and I believe that aligning with our purpose and pursuing it is THE goal. When we align and walk the path, life becomes simpler. Not necesserily easier, no. Simpler.
We know where to show up; we know what to do. We – simply – have to do it.
Same with numbers, money, goals of the mind.
You show up, and the universe delivers.
That’s how I function in the world now.
It’s easy to get wrapped up in numbers.
When you don’t have people in front of you – in a room, filling the room, whatever size, it is SO EASY to forget that each email address is a face, a body, a heart, a dream, a LIFE.
Each one of the people on your list, in your Facebook community, Twitter, whatever, is a person.
Stop and think about that for a minute.
I also believe that desperate craving is pointless (different from positive desires, more on that in a later post). You can crave a life that will not bring you fulfillment all day, and you can force-create it, and then you will live in it and likely suffer. I’ve done this; I suspect you have as well.
It is something to try but not something to sit inside of.
So what does this have to do with surrendering?
When I first conceived of The Epic Brand, it came to me in a meditation. The name, the colors, the theme, the feel; all of it. I knew it had to be built. But HOW it was to be built was a whole other story.
I decided it would be pre-done and sold as a self-taught class. I paused the class and worked on a colleague’s School, running production for months. It was a lot of work, and I was exhausted at the end. We were all happy and tired.
So I couldn’t fathom going back to recording, listening, managing for some time. My body refused.
I thought that meant I would have to wait till I could fathom it. I waited. And waited. And waited.
Until one day, in another meditation, exasperated, I begged for clarity. I knew the course had to be.
“How, universe. How?”
And then I saw it. A lite version of the production phase I dreaded – live.
I surrendered and launched it. And people came. And it felt good.
To tell you living and working this way is easy would be to lie to you.
At first it feels impossible. We are far too conditioned most of the time and begin to push up against EVERYTHING that feels good, everything that is truly ours and stick, instead, to everything hard, logical and detrimental to our mental and physical well-being.
You’ll feel better.
Of course this takes work and practice and commitment. But it’s happening to people around me all over the place.
Kick the critic.
We all know that voice.
“Stop the nonsense. It worked for your parents. It should work for you. The standard way is THE way. Don’t be crazy. Follow the herd.”
Where has that ever taken you?
A fantastic resource to help you:
Many of you know of my involvement with Belinda Davidson and the School of the Modern Mystic. For those of you who don’t, I will publicly state that she is one of my favorite people of all time. She is a colleague, mentor and dear friend, and I have the privilege and honor to coach the School having studied with her for some time.
This practice was initially produced for the school, and a practice I offer as part of The Epic Brand, because the course works with both sides of your brain, and you need energy work to help balance it.
This is all work I do personally, daily, ritualistically, so that my life is a reflection of my deepest, truest inspirations and Soul drive.
So it’s natural that the class starting in just over week will have the PERFECT group, in the perfect quantity, and be run exactly in the fashion perfect for all. I’ve intended it; I’ve decided, and I’ve surrendered.
I watch and listen and ask. And the feedback helps me shift and play with the information and adapt.
Adaptation is, as we are told, survival.